second star to the right and straight on till morning...

Heading back to sac. Work tomorrow, yay!

hmm... so im trying ping.fm to see how well it works. supposedly it'll take all social networks and combine them.

ok.. well after things happening the way they did last night... i figure it'd be a good idea to take an attempt at a dusk to dusk fast. i just feel it something i need to do since 've been to busy to even attempt something like that in .. well this year i believe. things have just been sort of odd here and at church as of late.. and i just wonder what my next move should be, or if i should even make one. we'll see what happens. i was hoenstly just thrown into a pissy mood last night, i dont really know what caused it.. and well people calling me while i was at church telling me they're waiting for me at my house sucked. i mean i just wanted to leave and go home, not go out to eat with people... i just didnt feel like hanging out. i just feel like alot of people are against me and its weird. i talked to a few people about it, and well its mixed. i'm just going to hope i'm wrong. cause being right all the time sucks.

if all goes according to play i'm going to home and visit next week for a couple of days and we'll see if vanessa can go. i'll need to make arrangements in that area. i'll have to talk to tim and figure out how to do it... i do know i miss home. so it'll be nice.

well i have laundry and cleaning to do... so i'm off. have fun kids.

you know... i just got home from seeing pirates... i'm not sure if it was worth it to tell you the truth. it was really drawn out... really drawn out. umm thats really about it. i'd be asleep right now, but i have this huge headache. tomorrow is a long day that i dont look forward to. oh.. and i talked to derek today... i miss that guy.. caught up on stuff. one of the people i miss and i wish i lived closer to... hm. well i'm off.

what on eath have you been up to? apparenlty that is what people want to know. well... i havent been up to much.. just work and umm.. i think tonight is the first night i have had in forever where i dont have to do anything. i've been going nonstop since 2 weeks ago. every night i've been doing something either work or church related.. or vanessa related... or casey related. tonight is an example of that.

i went to http://www.mentosandcoketrick.com/ and was inspired... 3 days ago. you wouldnt believe how hard it was to track down mentos in a roll form and not in a box. tonight though... i found em.. good ol target. we called casey.. and went to a park. there we saw it... in all its glory, a big slab of concrete in the middle of a park. it is now known as ground zero. it was fun... but apparently only really works well with coke.. but it was a lesson we learned.. and next time.. its all coke.

so thats my evening. ness went to go hang out with a friend having guy problems.. so i came home, made dinner.. played video games and now i'm writing this for jess.. why? because i love her and miss her and shes the one who cares :) i'll once again do my famous final words by saying "i'll write here more often."

you know.. i'm not sure what i think about the new xmen movie.. i'm kinda dissapointed..

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ok.. so i'm a loser :) i know. i havent been writing. honestly i hate the fact i havent been writing at all. its really lame. i've been trying pretty hard to keep this consistent for the last few years, i figure i'll be able to look back and either reflect and see how things have changed.. or be able to write a good book or something. yeah.. i havent done too well. well.. lets try and catch up on this last month or so? yeah.. i think its been a month...well.. not much has happened.. umm i spent easter with the girlfriend and her family.. that was fun... umm a ton of people got laid off at work, umm one of my roommates moved out... uhh i think thats about it. umm.. oh.. so i totally jacked my arm playing drums.. its really sore.. i even got a nice blood blister from it. i havent done that before, blisters yes, blood blisters no. so my arm was shot... i barely made it though that night.what was even more fun was dinner after church. vanessa ended up having to be the one to pray and started complaining about the fact she doesn't like praying in front of people.. so i said i'd pray and i believe it went like this... "God thank you for allowing us to come together and fellowship with each other, and for giving us our friendships, thank you for this meal... umm... be with us through out the rest of the week... and.. uh.. i'm tired.. thanks... bye God." to which everyone laughed and i was barely there.. and thankful i didn't drive. so.. i'm in the process of recovering. my arms still jacked up.. but i've been doing ok. i went to lunch with vanessa today.. that was fun... and then adam and i went to target to do some shopping.. it was some good stuff. umm.. soo thats about it. oh wait.. adam came over and we went on a quest to go find advent children, apparently its really hard to find. but we found it at the fourth place we tried. but yeah.. so we're stoked.so we watched that and had some bagel bites.. that was some good times :) fun huh? well.. i'm off.. hopefully i'll remember to start writing more. we'll see.. heres hoping.

ok... so tonight instead of church i got to go to a stupid dumb training thing for work. needless to say that was umm.. not fun at all. apparently i was supposed to go in uniform, yeah... i didn't do that either. anyways, so... i've noticed this a few times, well the few times i've driven back from citrus heights... i for some reason just think of kari... i guess cause the first time i went to the best buy there.. and when we went to old navy... for some reason that just sticks out in my mind, i know when adam and i went driving around, and when kevin kidnapped me and made me go where ever it was with him... yeah. i dont know. i guess i stink. its annoying. sometimes... i find it odd that these things bug me.. let alone get in my head. i hate it sometimes, i wish i didn't think about that stuff... but yeah... so i got back here.. and layed down. vanessa came over for a bit, we watched venture brothers :) but yeah.. i have tuesday and thursday off.. so hopefully i can get some stuff done around here.. like my room cleaned and my clothes actually put away.. that'd be a bit nice. we'll see. well... i'm gonna try to get me some sleep. you kids have a good time.

ok.. so... umm where to begin... last night i met vanessas dad last night. wow. really.. at first he was cool.. but then i got this weird feeling and he came off like a complete dick. too much really to go into other then i just got this whole he's being fake vibe and vanessa asked me about it after we got back here she asked me if i was myself.. and i explained i was... i was just my nervous self. needless to say i didn't do too well. i dont know.. i'm sure i'll talk about that later on.

tonight we had her birthday party... yeah. that was fun.. i sat and talked with kt.. and then vanessa was being pissy because i wasnt talking to her friends? i dont know.. it was a confusing night and i was left confused. i wonder whats going on with her.. and yeah.. i'm tired. i'll finish this tomorrow.

ok so i've decided my days off suck. why? because i woke up today at 6... pm. why? because i was in bed with a migraine.. i didn't get out of bed till almost 10... vanessa came over and kept me company.. even got me some drugs... i dont think they helped... but whatever :) so i feel a bit better. umm... i bought some milk so i can have my peanut butter and jelly now.. umm and a hot pocket... yay! well i got nothing done all day.. no laundry.. no cleaning the room.. i'm not too stoked. i really hate my day off luck. i'd say almost half of my days off are spent in bed because of being sick or a migraine. ugh.. well i'm going to try and do some laundry... and hopefully i'll sleep tonight. :)

wow... ok so i'm not the smartest person ever. yesterday in an effort to update my photoshop... i jacked it. how ? the file was laden with spyware.. so it upgraded it.. but it also infested my computer with spyware... ugh. i spent most of the evening trying to remove the spyware.. and it didnt work. so spent the rest of the nigh reinstalling windows AGIAN. i'm just not installing anything anymore. i spent my day off today not doing what i had planned.. i bombed on the whole costco thing.. and shopping for vanessas bday. no fun there... hopefully after work tomorrow. we'll see... i have to go to some dance recital. man.. my days are just really long.. its annoying. well... i'm off to bed. have a nice day of whatever.

ok.. so i FINALLY saw narnia... not bad i must say. today was my day off... didn't do much which is fine cause yeah.. its been awhile since i did nothing. umm i went to bj's tonight with adam and amy... vanessa met us there.. that was some good times. people watch steve eat, its fun. no. anyways.. umm i'm trying to figure out what to do for vanessa's birthday on monday since we're both at work all day. i'm thinking dinner with some friends of hers.. and hopefully i can talk amy and adam into going.. umm.. thats pretty much it. nothings really new going on... other then i should write more which i swear i say everytime. hmm.. i'm stoked for summer... why? cause casey will be here this summer... i cant wait. i miss that guy. umm.. yeah. so i'm going to bed. i have a semi long day tomorrow.. then a day off again.. weird. that hasnt happened in forever. oh.. and south park is one of the greatest shows ever. that and the boondocks.

ok.. well i am tired. but stoked. 2 things.. well 3 things. one being the fact leahs coming up to visit for a day.. well shes going to go to a show and i live ohere, so it works. umm ok.. anyways.. umm the ataris are having an acoustic show tomorrow night.. might go to that. only reason i wouldnt go is because its at the boardwalk and well i hate the boardwalk. umm oh and friday night rene is playing that sierra coffee co so thats cool, gotta love watching rene play. umm thats really it. i'm looking forward to having a day off... i feel like i dont sleep much anymore. oh.. and i'm back on my beating video games really fast kick. yeah.. no fun. ok.. well i'm off.. i need to head to bed.. well i guess pretend to anyways.

ok.. well.. here i am. i'm posting about once a week at my current rate. cool huh? not really... and i say this all the time.. i'm going to write more. but i havent. i'm trying.. trust me. anyways.. umm.. yeah things have been very normal for me. works just kinda hectic. but if everyone quits like they say they will.. it'll be cool.cause then maybe i'll get promoted. we'll see.. i havent really done much other then that lately. umm.. yeah. i havent really had much to think about as far as like deep thoughts or anything. well, i take that back. i do when i'm laying in bed at night but i dont feel like turning the computer back on because usually its worthless.\

umm... yeah. :) i dont have much else to say, i think i'm just wiped from work then church then jesse's party. vanessa didn't go like she said she wanted to... apparently things came up. but.. yeah... so she complains she hasnt met my friends yet... i tried. sometimes i wonder how much longer this will last. but we'll see...

also.. i just got back from watching v for vendetta... i liked it. i think i'm going to go buy the comic book now.

everyone in "nor-cal" needs to get slapped. all of you. why? i'll explain later.

ok.. well i'm tired.. and i cant sleep...well i can.. but i was playing some video games so i'm slowly tired now. work was fun.. i got yelled at for awhile by some old lady who broke her laptop screen... and then adam got yelled at after me. it was good times and fun was had by all.

last night was church.. played again.. the day seemed kinda long.. but then again when you work and then go directly to church anyones day would seem long. wow.. i really dont have much to say do i? oh.. the wedding.. sooo. i get to be a groomsmen in adam and amys wedding , cool huh? i'm stoked. i got this nice speech from adams mom about how they're glad i'm one of adams friends... it was funny. oh.. and then amys mom and i talked. apparently amy speaks very highly of me and shes glad i'm in the wedding too... i guess i'm well liked .. weird. umm i think thats all thats new. i really need to write in this more... agh. i feel like a slacker. oh.. hung out with vanessa for awhile tonight. we're in the process of watching the second season of the office, which she now loves... but then again who doesn't? well i mean only sucky people dont like it.

ok.. well... i'm up and i cant sleep. i enjoyed my day off today.. umm thats about it. i played video games most of the morning.. umm.. hung out with vanessa this evening, i cooked some dinner and we just hung out tonight.. it was nice. ummm oh.. yeah since she has a dance competition all day.. and well i have the engagement party to go to tomorrow night.. good times there. so apparently i'm going to be in a wedding? interesting no? no one tells me till just randomly like i was supposed to know.. its funny. anyways.. umm.. day off tomorrow so i'm gonna go run by work to go get the schedule for next week, i guess it would be nice to know whats going on like at least the day before. gotta love work being stupid about that.. umm. yeah.. i think when i feel like actually writing i'll have something not bitchy or whiny to say.. or maybe i might.. hmm. and heres where i start to ramble.. so i'm going now.

ok.. i'm alive.. but yeah.. i guess i just havent really felt like writing much lately... i come home from work.. either hang out with vanessa and go to bed... or come home and eat.. then go to bed... or hang out with vanessa and fall asleep. hmm.. yeah... well i'll post more later on.. and about the wedding i get to be in... ?